(sorry for the hecka long poem, and I am not satisfied with this as my post, I will be posting again)
Time no longer has meaning
Days are simply a word
Weeks might possess meaning
If you cared
.
The setting and rising of the sun
Is your clock
Even as you notice the
Days changing
You don’t
.
Change happens outside
Of this place
Change happens out there
In the live world
.
Change happens when
People start going to work again
Change happens when
You can talk to your friends
In person
.
For now everything has stopped
And you find yourself in a loop
Craving the sound of another person’s voice
But knowing you have to stay 6 feet away
.
And the only social interaction
You get
Is through a screen
And you know that
It can never be the same
.
You are in a state of indifference
Or constant panic
A state where everybody realizes
They are a little bit bipolar
.
It’s concerning and numbing
But you cant forget
To cherish those things
You care about
.
Just because you are apart
Doesn’t mean you are apart
Do you get me?
Let memories
Become your favorite form of entertainment
.
Because you have ran out of
Regular entertainment
The sound of the TV makes you want to scream
And social media hasn’t stopped being toxic
.
And no board games
Can take away your boredom
And just because you have your family
Doesn’t mean you aren’t alone
.
So you fall into a rhythm
Of not being present
Replaying your memories
Like a child rewatching their favorite movie
.
And it works for a while
But every so often
You freeze, and see the interior of your room
And realize you are alone
.
And the pain becomes unbearable then
And I dont judge you
For trying to distract yourself
You learn new talents
And listen to new songs
.
Even though your mind
Has been stuck on the same song
For a month
And it will be
For a month to come
.
You don’t know where you going
And you are scared
Of remembering what you had
And the pain that comes
With losing it
.
Things that meant so much
Seem trivial
You laugh at your ACT score
And go days without checking your classes
.
Because the things
You do care about
Are outside in the changing world
But you can’t change
.
You are stuck in a loop
That switches between
Indifference to panic
Like night to day
.
And I am sorry
.
Don’t let me discourage
You from trying to change
Because I like to believe
Some of us can
.
And you lucky few
Please tell us
How to break the loop
But until then
Stay 6 feet away
lol lets just say my ACT score was BAD. DEFINITELY redoing that next year. Every day just seems really slow for me.
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Wow wow wow I love this! You captured exactly how I feel during quarantine.
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Thankyou so much! And congratulations on winning! I am so glad you won!!
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